Unfinished work..

The subject was brought up innocently enough and just like that, I was right back at a moment in my life when I was put through three days of the worst fear and anxiety I have ever experienced.

White, hot, searing anger was lurking in the folds of that memory.  I was sure I had forgiven the person responsible..but maybe I hadn’t.

Forgiveness is tough, complicated work. But if the job isn’t completed, we remain forever vulnerable to a passing thought or random recollection.  Clearly, I’ve still got work to do..and it starts today with earnest prayer and a request to be forgiven myself.

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6 Comments Add yours

  1. ksbeth says:

    I have had to forgive people who were the hardest to forgive, and it is a huge challenge to say the least, but in doing so, it has freed me. it is very. hard.

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    1. Cindy says:

      I couldn’t agree more. I actually thought I was done with this particular issue..that I had it all squared away in my head..clearly though, I haven’t resolved it all. 😕

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  2. Sometimes it takes a long time to fully let go of something that has hurt us very deeply. At least, that’s been my personal experience. This is beautiful, thanks for sharing.

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  3. Sometimes it takes a long time to fully let go of something that has hurt us very deeply. At least, that’s been my personal experience. This is beautiful, thanks for sharing.

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  4. hey_jude6119 says:

    This has also happened to me recently. I was talking about something and found myself saying things that indicated I still was carrying a lot of resentment around. I’ve momentarily forgotten what it was, even though it was only in the last 3 or 4 days that this came up. Short term memory problems are not fun. I will pray though and ask God to bring it to mind, because I clearly have more work to do in this area. It’s not pretty, but we have to rid ourselves of these hindrances to our communion with God. Thanks Cindy!

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    1. Cindy says:

      It’s the old forgive and forget thing..At my age the forget part is naturally occurring 😉I can’t take credit for that-haha..but every so often a memory pops up reminding me that the forgiving part wasn’t accomplished..and the forgetting part wasn’t permanent.

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